When you walk into my home I have a bulletin board that I filled this fall with some of the people I love the most along with scriptures I feel pertains to them and covers them with blessings. Psalm 139 is a universal scripture that runs along the side of the bulletin board for all of us in this nest. This morning I was reading Psalm 139 as part of my morning reading of a devotional and verses 15 & 16 spoke to me in a way that I sensed God. For Real.
My journal entry as follows:
10/26/15 Tuesday
Psalm 139: 15 - 16.
You have seen everything before it happened. You knew my daughter's body. You know how it was formed. You knew the intricate delicacies of her unformed beginnings.
You Knew.
You Know.
So please- help us to know what to do to help her here on earth. Because I feel inadequate when she's in pain. I don't know what to do. I'm guessing and trying and trusting others.
You know when teeth and bones decay. You know when minds begin to forget. You know when we are about to give birth.
You, as God, already saw it happening.
Please teach me how to respond. Help me to fully understand and trust how much you already know and have planned for each one of us.
What it will be like to live debt free..You already have seen it.
What will it look like to watch another child get married. Done. And You already know the date.
When will this grandbaby come? You have already seen this child's face while being knit together in her mother's womb.
Who will be there for the son in our old age? Will we be alive to share as much life as possible with this love child of older age? You already know and have seen and will be caring for this sweet son.
If, as God, you know. My requests seem almost silly.
But.
I will request, because I don't know. And I'm doing my best to trust, be engaged in the present, planning for the future as well as I humanely know how.
I continue to request:
Health for my children.
Beautiful, Loving, marriages for each one of them.
Success that uses their gifts.
Protection from anyone who tires to bring ruin or destruction upon their lives.
That all of us would be protected spiritually, physically, relationally, emotionally.
As I pray for and love on these people you have blessed me with, I also ask for your guidance continually for me. For my health, spiritual and physical. For strength during the many changes that always seem to be happening. And for an over flowing abundance of Grace and Forgiveness as I daily am choosing to do my best, but maybe does not look like I am.
Thank you God, in Advance.
Because You already know it all anyway.
Love, Julie
Blessed Daily even when I need a root canal (2) and I have a flat tire. Because, God, you already knew those things were going to happen, and so, in the midst of my crazy, I will trust you.
